Top of the World!

     Sitting here alone while the band on stage is playing its second song.  It's late and it sure is tiring.  I wake up everyday at 4:30 am, do my daily hustle, eat daily my preferred silog variety, ride to work on a bus and sleeping while the traffic is making its monstrous appeal to morning shows. And I still come late. Now, more than 8-hour job without lunch almost everyday is not your idea of a life.  It is appalling how I managed to stay here for more than 11 years.  Maybe, because of the pay, because, generally, banks pay better than any other industry. I am working for the money.  Who isn't?

     Now, it is Friday today and I have to do something on Fridays to appease my soul for doing things that I don't really like.  I need a break from the kind of life I wasn't suppose to live. Here I am again, whining continuously for being a good person, for being a good daughter, for being someone who pay my taxes on time that these local officials corrupt. I need a life.  Please inject it to my vein!

     Suddenly, Patalim, the band I am following, is having a gig somewhere in Cavite.  And I rushed to get to the event, I even stood in a bus to get to the gig before it starts.   And now, I'm sitting alone while the band plays their second song yet I feel so at home.  I feel that this is what I really like all along. Musicians everywhere, creative juices are given for free.  The beat of the drums, the guitar riffs, the growl of the singers..the tapping sound of the bass guitars...fill my heart and mind like magic. It doesn't even matter if it's late, or if I am already tired from work.  This is where I am supposed to be.  Amidst the chaos in my mind, amidst the problems of my daily grind, they are now ancient to me, and it seems like I am in a different world and I am sitting on top of it.

     And then the night ended.  The gig was done.  I have to go home to get a proper sleep.  I will be berating myself again for not getting enough sleep. Because tomorrow, I have to get up again at 4.30 am, do my daily hustle, and repeat everything that I already said.  Minus the part where I come in late.  On better days, I beat the time and that  moment is a wow moment!!!

(Photo credits to Rakrakan Festival)